Friday night we went to listen to some bands in Gruene, Texas. I was totally out of my element - out in a strange city, at a dance hall listening to singers I've never heard of before. I had the best time! I actually even surprised myself. I was prepared to sit in a corner and read a book on my phone the entire night. I even got hit on by a sweet 60 year old man! Saturday night we went to two different places. The first place I was totally out of my element. I was uncomfortable and I did what made me comfortable - I read a book on my phone! No matter how hard I tried to loosen up, I just couldn't.
We left there and went to the second bar. A place that was the mother load of scariness for me - a bar so packed you couldn't hardly move. I HATE non-moving crowds. After about 20 minutes of this we all went outside on the patio. I was able to relax more because I could actually move around and breathe easily. While we were standing on the patio a guy came out and asked us for a pen. He was super cute and hilarious. He was also drunk. He came out a couple of times to talk to all of us and he and I talked each time. I later learned that he was flirting with me. I honestly thought he was just a drunk guy and wasn't serious. (My sister said I'm like the movie Clueless - I'm clueless when it comes to flirting with guys and them flirting with me! :) )
Let me backtrack a little and say that before I went on this trip I was REALLY struggling with my self image. I love every other part of my body but my stomach. I have been struggling and stressing trying to figure out how to love it honestly. But thanks to 3:00AM girl talk (very insightful for me!) and a flirty drunk guy I realized something big - guys aren't as shallow as I made them out to be. Just like I look at more than physical features when I'm interested in a guy, they do the same thing when they are interested in a girl. It was a big aha moment for me! And talking to a strange guy on a personal level was not nearly as frightening as I originally thought. My family kept telling me that it's not as bad I make it out to be, but this was one lesson that I had to learn on my own.
I truly believe that God gives you trying times and difficult days so that He can teach you some wonderful lessons. This was exactly what I needed to learn.
So on this hilarious trip I learned that it's OK to let loose and have some fun, flirting with guys (and flirty guys) isn't as scary as I originally thought and that Austin is, well, weird!
Until Next Time,
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