I am posting this as part of The Single Woman's 30-Day Blogging Challenge.
So here's the thing, most days I really love being single. Yes I do want to be in a relationship and eventually get married, but for now I am really enjoying this time being single. I can do exactly what I want to do right now and I don't have to think about anyone else. I can focus solely on me and be as undomesticated as I want (hello wine, cheese and crackers for dinner!).
But there was one day a few weeks ago where being single really sucked: Everything about that day felt like a battle, especially at work. Just trying to get the simplest of answers was like pulling teeth. People weren't responding in the time frame I needed them to, and when they did, they didn't have the answer I needed. There was nothing earth shattering or horrible that happened. It was just a day where, by the end of it, you felt like the world had beat you up. Work was frustrating and my personal life wasn't much better. I spent a good portion of the evening stressing and over thinking every little thing. Things that more than likely will never happen - I spent hours worrying about them. No matter how hard I tried to, I couldn't stop the downward over thinking spiral.
At the end of the day, I so desperately wanted someone to come home to. Someone who would give me a hug when I got home and tell me that they were sorry I had a long day. Someone I could have texted an S.O.S. to earlier in the day - long frustrating day ahead, bring lots of wine tonight. xoxo But alas there was no one send the text to. It was another day where I had to take care of myself - go to bed early and pray that tomorrow will be a better day.
Until Next Time,
So here's the thing, most days I really love being single. Yes I do want to be in a relationship and eventually get married, but for now I am really enjoying this time being single. I can do exactly what I want to do right now and I don't have to think about anyone else. I can focus solely on me and be as undomesticated as I want (hello wine, cheese and crackers for dinner!).
But there was one day a few weeks ago where being single really sucked: Everything about that day felt like a battle, especially at work. Just trying to get the simplest of answers was like pulling teeth. People weren't responding in the time frame I needed them to, and when they did, they didn't have the answer I needed. There was nothing earth shattering or horrible that happened. It was just a day where, by the end of it, you felt like the world had beat you up. Work was frustrating and my personal life wasn't much better. I spent a good portion of the evening stressing and over thinking every little thing. Things that more than likely will never happen - I spent hours worrying about them. No matter how hard I tried to, I couldn't stop the downward over thinking spiral.
At the end of the day, I so desperately wanted someone to come home to. Someone who would give me a hug when I got home and tell me that they were sorry I had a long day. Someone I could have texted an S.O.S. to earlier in the day - long frustrating day ahead, bring lots of wine tonight. xoxo But alas there was no one send the text to. It was another day where I had to take care of myself - go to bed early and pray that tomorrow will be a better day.
Until Next Time,
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